^^^ my pretty lady baby, nine months old ^^^
i'm beyond exhausted. like, part of me thinks something may be wrong with me exsausted. like there is no way that all moms with three or more lils can be this exhausted, and if so then why didn't they tell me? i hate to be a downer but this right here... is is truth!!
yea, yea its worth it. sure, sure they are the apple of my eye.. but ill be darned if i say that i wouldn't have it any other way. cuz i would!!! I would like to have my three beautiful babies and still feel like im human inside.
i look around the web at other moms who are crafting at naptime, baking on sundays, writing about how tired they are but yet still "producing". i wanna produce. i wanna still feel like im functioning. plenty of people tell me that im too hard on myself. i get that, i can see that. im working on that. i know it may seem like i'm comparing, but i'm not. let's just call it looking for a better way. the severe exhaustion is part of the reason why i chose to blog again. no one gets this tired from doing nothing, so something must be getting done around here. this blog will serve as an "outside looking in" for me, so that i can remember and see all the things that i couldn't see in my current state of exhaustion. all the while, recognizing things that are within my control to change and adjust. i.e exercising, eating better, pushing through when things are rough.
^^^ those curls ^^^
my babies have all been enjoying bath time. i have gotten to the point where i am able to bathe them all at the same time and they LOVE it. my lady tends to splash a bit harder as the boys giggles get louder and louder and it makes me smile inside.
this week we have been sleeping on our mattress via the living room floor because the frame on our bed broke right before we left for richmond a little bit ago. it was fun while it lasted but we were beyond ecstatic to have that sucker back up and running.
we got a little glimpse of what it is like to be out on a semi nice weather day and can't wait for more days like these. >>well, maybe slightly warmer doe<<<
bedtime is becoming a little more fun and a little less stressful as of late. my big is reading better and better and between he and his baby brother, they are reading us bedtime stories and we are getting about 15 kicks out of it. makes us happy dance on three left feet. read babies, read!!!
so there are my randoms. laid out in the craziest of ways because.....well.... I'm exhausted, duh!
from syreena, with love